a choice to make...

sabi nila being a happy is a choice...

what?

a choice?

hay, i always choose to be happy naman e. feeling na nga ng ibang tao i don't encounter any problems at all! they're all wrong. i choose to smile on the outside, and mind you it is sooooo exhausting. i try to flash my widest grin for everybody to know that i am and i will always be okay. not knowing that i will end up dying inside. years have passed, i don't know if i am just holding back or i just pity myself for all the mistakes i've done.

oh well..

what's new? i always recall every moment of my downfall. i am not the same person you knew, i am more strong and more rotten inside. hahaha.

poor me.

i want to be happy. jolly as everyone else. living my life as if there is no tomorrow.

i hate being sad..
i don't want to mask everything.
i want to be transparent as if i can make up for everything.