there is more to life than hanging around and thinking what might have been...
i won't let these situations kill me...
i may be weak at this point,
but it doesn't mean i'll let them stop me from doing what i want to do...
i will go on.
i won't let this storm soak me with tears.
i won't let this pain hurt me even more. enough is enough....
it will pass...
i wii be strong
"i'm twisted cause one side of me is telling me that i need to move on, on the other side i want to break down and cry."
exact situation i'm in right now. my emotions keep on telling me to stay and take all the pain yet another side tells me that i don't deserve this. i don't exactly know how it all started. i just wish it didn't happen.
i'm partly strong and mostly weak at this point. the last time i went under this kind of stress was a few years back. i never thought that i'd have to go through it all over again. i know i learned something before, i just couldn't get why i can't apply it now.
the pain keeps on coming back because i haven't learned the lesson yet. or maybe, i have, but my stubborn mind kept on committing the same damn mistakes. everytime i try to walk away, the same thing happens. yet if i stay, i feel like i'll be more hurt than ever.
what the hell am i going to do....?!
the only other world i can get out is my blog. a lot may know me as a strong person. most of than not, they do not see the weak side.
i feel a different person whenever i write stuff about whatever. people will or will not accept me but who cares? this is my blog anyway. and you are my reader. if you happen to drop by my blog, you'll get a chance to know me a wee bit more... this is my sweet escape from the cruel world. this is the only chance i get to feel that i'm accepted whether i'm not, i may be compared to a different blogger but i don't really care.
