where are you?

i met you in an unexpected time.
i never thought it would happen this way
i always knew that you will always be there,
regardless of how i push you away
you talk to me as if i'm a princess
treating me well with all those fancy words
as you pass by,
that smile always kept my soul alive

but yesterday was totally different,
you didn't stare at me
you asked casual questions
without the smile in your face
were you expecting a different person?
or am i just exaggerating?
maybe i was just hoping
where are you?

broken

alone as i wait patiently
the lights blinking,
my heart's throbbing
endless memories of the past keep haunting
will i know you?
somebody rescue me from drowning
tears falling, dreams fading
emptiness stays
wholeness disappears
rejected , trampled and wounded.
will you save me?