sad

just found out last weekend... i found myself cheering him up when i first heard the news.. ayaw siguro magsink in kaya ganun...

"princess, pinapauwi na talaga ako nina mommy sa bacolod e..."

those words kept ringing in my head. i felt scared. no more tata around whenever i go to work. no more tata around when i want to go out. no more tata around whenever something is up at work.

yung feeling na kahit kasama ko sya namimiss ko pa rin sya... hay... Long Distance Relationship here i come... kaya naman magsurvive... nakakatawa lang na ako yung iyak ng iyak mga 10 minutes after nya sabihin sakin.

hay... looking at the bright side, okay rin lang kasi i want to go back to school and continue my studies. tus yun din naman gusto ng family nya. so there, after school marami pa naman kaming pwedeng gawin. plus, may summer naman, may sembreak... madaming holidays... :) ok na rin pala... :)

hay tata... i miss you already...

And You Thought Your Job Was A Pain?

Got this from my boyfriend... read on :)

If you think, for one second, you’ve got a bad job, on your way home from work, stop at your pharmacy. I want you to go to the thermometer section and purchase a rectal thermometer made by Johnson & Johnson.

Be very sure you get this brand. When you get home, lock your doors, draw the curtains and disconnect the phone so you will not be disturbed.

Change into very comfortable clothing and sit in your favorite chair. Open the package and remove the thermometer. Now, carefully place it on a table or a surface so that it will not become chipped or broken.

Now the fun part begins. Take out the literature from the box and read it carefully. You will notice there is a disclosure in very fine print that reads:

“Every Rectal Thermometer made by Johnson & Johnson is personally tested and then sanitized.”

Now, close your eyes and repeat out loud five times, “I am so glad I do not work in the thermometer quality control department at Johnson & Johnson.” Have a wonderful day knowing that, no matter how bad it is, there is always a job that’s more of a pain than yours.

thoughts

i am a talker i admit it, i try to listen though.

i just hate it when they try to take control. i hate it that they try to make me follow.

i hate it that it seems everything goes out of hand.

i hate it that everything i write seem like something that hits.

i tried to apologize

i ain't slipping away. i just don't want to talk.

i want to relax.

i just want to be myself.

i want this MESS to end

it started out with me anyway.

so tell me, how the hell do i end it?

and please, stop pointing.

fine, blame everything on me

current thoughts

naiisip ko palang, tumatayo na balahibo ko sa katawan. i may be tired... i may have on going worries in my mind.

but right now...

i feel scared.

i lost half of who i am and i'm not that sure if i'm willing to lose the other half again... haven't got anything much to show or to offer. i may be good at certain things but then, who am i to boast. i still don't have much to offer.

i ain't perfect and i will never be.

there may be are a lot to brag about being me, but is it enough to make them love me?

i feel like throwing up everytime i feel like i'm losing people around me. it's like i wanted to stab every inch of my body. but would that make any help?

i'm sorry.