enough

i just want to stop fooling myself. i fought the same battles everyday. i pretend that everything's gonna be alright. i smile from the outside and i get rotten on the inside. i just want to live.

am i too weak to let go or am i to strong to fight for this stupid feeling?

how i wish i could be numb. i just want to be somebody else for one second. i want to hug myself and give myself a pat on the back whipering that everything's going to be alright.

if only i had not chosen this. this whole thing would be a lot better. if i had made the right decisions, i should have been happier.