complicated

i got things out of hand again. i am more reckless than ever. they always tell me that i am good in handling things. well, yun lang kasi yung nakikita nila. i actually don't know what i want. i easily change my mind.

hay, ewan ko ba. takot kasi ako lagi e. takot masaktan.

kung trauma tawag dito, nako baliw nako ngayon. my life gets complicated every single day, implication ba to na matanda nako? funny to think no? pero i've realized that i'm getting to see the whole picture of myself getting silly.

making a good decision is the hardest part, kasi naman, di ko alam kung anung posibleng consequence nun sakin. i want to cope with whatever that i'm going through. di lang naman eto nangyari once e.

don't be too pushy. baka mali yung ibigay kong sagot tus masasaktan kayo. ako rin naman babalikan ng decisions ko e.

help me please? i miss being bubbly. i miss me.